Tranquil turbulence

I hear nothing I choose to not hear 
I love nothing I choose not to love
I see nothing I choose not to see
I see, I-sea- am awash in the night
The night crashes through me
Around me
Is me
A sea of tranquility
Where am I going?
Where am I flowing?
Am I the tide or do I ride it?
Am I the waves or do I fight it?
Am I the water?  
Am I the fish?
Am I the rock or sand?
Do I swim?
Do I stand?
For what, and when, and who?
Is it for me or, my God, for You?
Where is my when?
And when will I arrive there?
You know
You know